People say she's only in my head
It's gonna take time, but I'll forget
They say I need to get on with my life
What they don't realize

Is when you're dialing six numbers just to hang up the phone,
Drivin' cross town just to see if she's home,
Wakin' a friend in the dead of night,
Just to hear him say it's gonna be alright
When you're finding things to do not to fall asleep
Cause you know she'll be there in your dreams
That's when she's more than a memory

Took a match to everything she ever wrote,
Watched her words go up in smoke.
Tore all her pictures off the wall,
That ain't helpin' me at all

Cause when you're talking out loud and nobody's there,
You look like hell and you just don't care,
Drinkin' more than you ever drank,
Sinkin' down lower than you ever sank,
When you find yourself falling down upon your knees,
Praying to God beggin' Him please,
That's when she's more than a memory.

She's more.
She's more.

Cause when you're dialin' her number just to hang up the phone,
Drivin' cross town just to see if she's home,
Wakin' a friend in the dead of night,
Just to hear him say it's gonna be alright,
When you're findin' things to do not to fall asleep,
Cause you know she's waiting in your dreams,
That's when she's more than a memory.

People say she's only in my head,
It's gonna take time, but I'll forget.

So for those of you who are way out of the loop, Trish and I split up, like, 3-4 weeks ago. I think 3. I don't really remember. I didn't take it too well, but I am trying very, very hard to not be angry and realize that yes, I was used as a rebound guy.

I am totally on great terms with Zuri these days, after having nearly fucked that friendship up permanent-like backin Feb or so?

I just went to the bank. Now I have iced coffee, and an upset tummy. Yay! Boo!
Going to chill now, prolly play CoV for a bit.

Saw mc chris last night @ the Ottobar. Had fun. Got to meet DJ Pyrria, who is awesome in person form.

Uh. That's really about it, I guess.

Oh! My GPA for the semester is 3.5. No failures for me.
Also, I have great friends, but I never want to see them. Odd, huh?

So. Life is different when you are dating. Not like, Bizzaro world different, and almost entirely better, just... different.
For one, nothing makes you more confident than getting your cock sucked on a regular basis. It's true. At least, it is for me. I guess I should really back my words up with an empirical study.

Anyway, this confidence leads to more chicks wanting to play whack-a-hole with my mallet. Of course, I am not down for this, as I am clearly happy with my current horizontal sparring partner.

About 10 minutes ago, some blond chick I have had like 5 classes with here and never spoken too just smiled at me across the computer lab. Wtf is up with that, huh? It's a fucked up world we live in.

Other changes: I now have someone else I worry about and am deeply concerned over. This is actually good, it makes me feel like an actual caring, compassionate human being. I do have to cut out on my internet sexings and flirtings, which takes some adjustment, but again, is worth it. I am a flirt, what can I say.

Last, I never have any fuckin money. I mean, I never do, but now I have even less. I spend all my cash keeping my celly running so I can call her, putting gas in the car to see her (and paying that damned toll) and going out. Though she spends more than I do. I just pay her back in rape dollars.

On my second date with Trish. Still. It's been, like, 25 hours so far. wtf?

We did sleep, for a while. Kinda drowsy, actually. Ah well. Will survive, so worth it.

Would like SO MUCH to work tomorrow.

This is sort of a rant in the vein of 25th Hour.

Fuck people who flake out on friendships, only being around when they need shit or want a hand or a kind word.

Fuck professors acting all snotty when their class gets prioritized last in the list. Something has to get done last. Your 3 credit course is not hte defining moment of my life.

Fuck the comic book fans on the internet. If you hate comics, quit fucking buying and reading them, that simple. If you want shit to be like it was in 1988 or whatever, pick up some Claremont and Simonson and Byrne and Perez trades.

Fuck Jeph Loeb. I'm sorry man, but you can't even make sense anymore. Your Superman/Batman stuff was good. Really. But then it got crazy. Maximums March? Red Hulk? Anything regarding Ultimates 3.

Fuck people who can't be assed to respond to something, be it an email, an SMS, a phone call. Fuck 'em. Someone apparently found you worthy of devoting enough time to that they sent you a message. Acknowledge it.

Fuck internet message board trolls. It's pointless douchebaggery that doesn't serve any productive purpose. You aren't cool, hip, or clever. You ARE a cunt.

Fuck people obsessed with the oWoD. The system is clunky, there were too many clans, paths were bullshit.

Fuck people on Virtue who are RP snobs. The ones that'll straight up ignore you despite clearly talking to them. If your character is ignoring someone, for fuck's sake, pose that you are doing so.

Fuck cliques. Of any sort.

Fuck my friends. You guys are all assholes. Even the ones who aren't.

Fuck students. Behave like human beings and not goddamned animals you little pieces of shit.

Fuck bitches. Get money.